Hesitation.

I think I am going to push past it. I mean, its always going to bug me, but they were right to tell me to just go with it. Whether or not it goes my way. Which has always been difficult for me. I have a hard time breaking out of my own bias. I guess I'm just realizing that falling back into sync is so easy and I suppose I just can't get choked up when it doesn't happen so often. I know that it was not at my hands that perished. I was going to leave it where it was. I was going to stay just as angry as I am, or was. But I caught a glimpse of what it would cost and its not worth it. But its not worth losing sleep over either. I have found the middle ground, or so I think. Although, I'm scared to plant my feet firmly incase the ground falls through beneath me. There are still some things that bring me to angry tears, but I have to be willing to turn the other cheek. Not saying that magically everything is going to be great, because its not. And even if this is as good as it gets, I suppose I am willing to take that.

Forgive & not ever forget.

Across the water, across the deep blue.

Happy mommy day :) Tomorrow I begin work. I am not really looking forward to it, but I am definitely looking forward to having money. I'm pretty nervous, which is stupid I know. But I can't help but get anxious whenever I get placed in new weird situations. Especially ones where I'm expected to excel. I'm waiting on my final grade report so that I will know what programs I got into. Then comes course selection, which I have already pretty much picked out all my courses for. Summer is weird. It feels weird. I feel like I'm going to be going back Hamilton in like a week or so. I'm really bored and thought I should write something.

borrrrrrrrred.

Time goes so slowly in the summer. I can't believe I've only been here for like a week. I am so bored. I want to be somewhere exciting. Thank God I'm leaving in less than 10 days.

Legendary.

I'm feeling pretty awesome. I am so glad to be home for the summer. I mean, dealing with my parents and their shenanigans is going to suck, but other than that I'm totally stoked on life. I saw Michael Sera yesterday in starbucks with a bunch of hipsters, haha. I just feel happy and content with everything right now. I have plenty to do before this summer ends, but I have lots of time to do it. As much as being poor really sucks, not having a job gives me a lot of time for myself. And I do have things to do. I'm still not fully unpacked. I'm just happy and rambling about nothing. I suppose that is why I have a blog.