Hesitation.

I think I am going to push past it. I mean, its always going to bug me, but they were right to tell me to just go with it. Whether or not it goes my way. Which has always been difficult for me. I have a hard time breaking out of my own bias. I guess I'm just realizing that falling back into sync is so easy and I suppose I just can't get choked up when it doesn't happen so often. I know that it was not at my hands that perished. I was going to leave it where it was. I was going to stay just as angry as I am, or was. But I caught a glimpse of what it would cost and its not worth it. But its not worth losing sleep over either. I have found the middle ground, or so I think. Although, I'm scared to plant my feet firmly incase the ground falls through beneath me. There are still some things that bring me to angry tears, but I have to be willing to turn the other cheek. Not saying that magically everything is going to be great, because its not. And even if this is as good as it gets, I suppose I am willing to take that.

Forgive & not ever forget.