holy shit. Summer, where did you go? How am I supposed to leave my stupid friends that I look to as family. Saying bye to you was a million and a half times harder than I ever thought it would be. You've been my best friend for eight years, give or take. It's weird to see you leaving. As much excitement as I have to go, I am heartbroken. I take my turn hating and loving each of them, but being separated kind of sucks.
I can't believe how far I've taken this. It needs to end. Now. I thought my "self-revelation" post realm of possibility the other night would have ceased this. I was wrong. I know where my heart stays and I know who I want at my side now. And I'm sure of this for the first time in a while. But my head drifts. "I'm not unfaithful, but I'll stray. When I get a little scared" I don't know what possesses me to do the things I do. Fuck. Everything is a jumbled mess and it's all my fault.
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