insomnia.

I can't sleep. I haven't been able to sleep. It's like there's this dark cloud of awake-ness looming over my head. It's absolutely horrible. And everyday is the same, I run on a hell of a lot of caffeine. I don't know why I can't function like a normal human being should. But it's really becoming a problem.

If I had to pick one word to describe how I'm currently feeling it would be apathetic. I just can't seem to feel anything. Other than overwhelming stress and fear. I think if I don't think about it, it doesn't have to bother me. Because when I start to consider what's really going on here, I want to scream. I think I need to breakdown. I'm not sure I even know how anymore.