I am exhausted. I don't know why, I just am. Today marks three years, three years ago standing in the cold, dressed in black. Today is just as cold, perhaps colder. I don't really remember acknowledging the cold at that point three years ago. It's easier now, after learning to concede- I think.
I am looking forward the rest of my week off. Last night was good, after finding out The Curious Case of Benjamin Button was sold out, we decided to see Marley and Me instead- which was really good, but really sad. I just really enjoyed being out with eric, matt, alison and jay. I am always willing to see a movie for the company regardless of what movie it is. Unless it is terrifying, then i might re-consider. Tomorrow Eric is coming over in the morning and we are going to bake banana pancakes! Then Amanda and Becca are sleeping over and we are going shopping on Tuesday. But as of right now, I am extremely bored. And it sucks.
Although, I think i like being home. Not to the point of regretting leaving, but to the point where I dread going back in a week. I don't like leaving him. I can't help but re-read his christmas card over and over. To find his love in the sincerity of his child-like handwriting. I don't know what he would ever see in me, but he looks at me differently. Friday marks 31 months and my sincere hope to all the world is that each and every person could find love like what I've found in the comfort of his embrace. I could not ask for anything more and even asking for what I have would seem selfish to me. I don't want a fairy-tale romance, I want exactly what I have right now.
12.24.2008
Merry Christmas to all & to all a good night!
so this is my first blog and all i can think about are all the different things making fun of blogs, haha. i actually have nothing intelligent to say other than i am extremely excited for christmas and that's about it. So Happy Holidays to whoever is reading this. Which i'm sure, is no one.
love, margarita
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