"The greatest love story ever told is your own"

rules.

Ten Rules for Being Human
by Cherie Carter-Scott
1. You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it’s yours to keep for the entire period.
2. You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called, “life.”
3. There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error, and experimentation. The “failed” experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that ultimately “work.”
4. Lessons are repeated until they are learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.
5. Learning lessons does not end. There’s no part of life that doesn’t contain its lessons. If you’re alive, that means there are still lessons to be learned.
6. “There” is no better a place than “here.” When your “there” has become a “here”, you will simply obtain another “there” that will again look better than “here.”
7. Other people are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.
8. What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.
9. Your answers lie within you. The answers to life’s questions lie within you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.
10. You will forget all this.

time and time again.

this too, shall pass.
I know it will. Because no matter how far I fall, there will always be something, someone to pull me out.

& when I really think about it, I'm so lucky

Academic Advising.

I am officially scared shitless for not just the next 2 years of my life, but the next 7 or so. I knew that this is what I wanted from the start. The last thing that I am is a quitter. I will prevail and I will get what I want and came here to do. I just didn't realize what that meant. I'm glad I know though. Asking questions and putting yourself out there is the only way to succeed. How can you expect to be put up on that pedestal if no one even knows who you are, or can't even recognize your face. I can do this, I just can't psych myself out not to. And I have to be sure this is what I want.

I can't believe it's mid-november. I can't believe how long it's been since you've crossed my mind. I don't want to believe that our paths won't cross again. But that's just such a likely option. And one that I hate. So many people have walked in and out of my life. I hate to watch it happen. I don't want to let anyone go. Especially not you. I knew it was right to push you away and I'd like for you to come back if you promise not to take a chokehold on my life again. I think I just really need proof that you're as genuine as you made yourself out to be. As sincere as I let myself believe. Something tells me that I'm false in my assumptions. But I can never tell with you..

keep it on wax.

"I, I guess, the only thing cheap to you is your friends

Now this bridge is ashes
It might as well have never been built
And the river that it crossed
Looks like an ocean now, looks like an ocean now

Times change and people change with them
Some people love to play the victim
You threw caution to the wind
Washed away these few last years for nothing
(Was it all for nothing)
Keep it on wax

Your not the only one
Who's had to make sacrifices

It won't change a goddamn thing"

and it feels so real from the outside, looking in.

Tyrant.

"I'm stained with apathy. I'm blind, but I can see"

my mind is a mess. I am the definition of a scatterbrain right now. I need to eat, sleep, study, work, clean. I just need to breathe. I feel so freaked out by everything, I keep thinking its so much closer to Friday than it actually is. I don't think sleep is a legit option for the next couple of days. I am going to work like a mother fucker. I will get through this. And I will get through it gracefully and greatly. I need a fucking mantra. Why can't it be Friday afternoon already?

old habits die hard.

It's so easy to go back to where I started. It's so easy to set myself up for failure. again. To sleep until oblivion and not do anything about anything. But I can't. I have too much riding on this year. I need to get my ass back in gear. I was doing fine before I got sick. Before I had an excuse to not do anything. It's time to step up.

illness.

I hate being sick. I really hope it's not H1N1. That would really suck. Catching up, when you're already behind is really not fun at all. I just want to feel like a normal human being again. whatever that means. but right now I feel like the living dead.

"in my world everyone is a pony and they all eat rainbows and poop butterflies"